‘I Do Not Exist’ – Pathological Loss of Self after a Buddhist Retreat

Eve is plagued by a waking nightmare. ‘I do not exist. All you see is a shell with no being inside, a mask covering nothingness. I am no one and no thing. I am the unborn, the non-existent.’ – from Pickering (2019). Dr. Judith Pickering is a psychotherapist and Jungian Analyst in Sydney, Australia. Her patient ‘Eve’ is an “anonymous, fictionalised amalgam of patients suffering disorders of self.” Eve had a psychotic episode while attending a Tibetan Buddhist retreat. She felt that she was no more than an amoeba-like semblance of pre-life with no form, no substance, no past, no future, no sense of on-going being.” ….[READ]